So it is the last day of 2008. This day started out as one of the worst days of this year. I have been having money trouble all year, but it was especially hard on Christmas time. People have been a blessing to me though. People who I borrowed the church´s van that I drive right now, have left more gas in it and so i got to drive around more without wasting money on gas. I got to serve others who i didn´t even know.
I also wanted to save up so I could continue dancing and I had the exact money for it in my bank card this morning. It was given to me as a christmas present from a sweet friends family in the USA. Anyway... So i went to town to get some stuff and since i am always so confused in the mornings I thought it is holiday and that its free parking everywhere. Anyway i was a away only half an hour and i got a ticket. My first ticket. I was furious cuz it was the excact amount of money that I was saving for my danging lessons. I was mad and i drove home like a lunatic. I´ve never felt such anger against these ticket people and amongst holiday season. I was pissed off. I got home, put my loud music on and continued to clean up my room.I was angry, but I tried to concentrate on God, cuz i didn´t want to be mad at something I couldn´t do anything about. Still this anger was stronger than my will at first. Then I realized, it wasnt my anger. It was not from God. And i started to talk back to the bad guy(satan). I said that you will not take away my joy! I will not give you the satisfaction in that! You will not ruin the last day of the year. I tried so hard to fight him. I know God was with me...
Then i took a break and checked my mail. I saw some work realated e-mails, some stupid trash and then a friend of mine had written me. His message shocked me, because it made me cry. He wrote that he had just transfered money to my Josiah Venture account to support me. He said its not a lot, but for me that a mount of money is huge. I just started to cry and I still am. I just can´t seem to understand how can God be mercyful and generous with me, when i just really don´t deserve it. How can He love me so much? I just thank Him right now as tears of hope keep falling down my cheeks. It is not what I expected. I cant take that money out right now, but just to know that someone would believe in me so much to donate that much, made my eyes cry. I have really put all my trust in Him with money this month, but still, I never thought He could bless me so much. I just want to pray for all of you who read my Blog and visit my website! I pray that God would bless your lives the way you can never imagine, that He would let you see hom wonderful this world is even when there is so much hurt in it. I want you to encourage to never give up on Him! Let Him fight for you!
I love you all! Once again I feel like a peace of my heart is still in USA with ya´ll. I need to come back there soon!
Be blessed!
Your´s always,
Kati
http://katike.planet.ee/
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