MY LIFE IS MY MESSAGE

NEW BLOG!

2009-01-21T00:48:00.000-08:00

Hey! Okay first of all sorry that i keep changing my websites. I dropped my website building idea, because it was just way too much for me, instead i moved to Wordpress where i can have all that i need and its just so easy. So from now on my BLOG is

http://katisworld.wordpress.com/

Thank You for you patience! Love ya´ll!!

Friends from Belarus

2009-01-20T15:35:00.000-08:00

I can say now that I have friends from Belarus. So here i go...somehow i got an assigment from Peep (my boss) to be in charge of people coming over from Belarus. Helped them to get Visas and make schedules. It was fun, but i´ve never met them so it was kinda wierd also.
So today I went to the bus stop to pick them up...great success...don´t even know what they look like...well i was lucky - there wasn´t too many people on bus and i recognized one of the girls from the pictures also. So got to the place where they are staying and started talking. I never thought i could have so much in common with them. They are just sweet girls! We are about same age and work with same stuff. It was great to chat with them. So its late now and i gotta hit the pillow soon, but i am just greatful to God that i got to meet them and I can feel that its gonna be lots of fun to hang out with them! :)

Church camp

2009-01-17T04:27:00.001-08:00

I am so tired right now. I´ve been planning our church camp and we arrived yesterday. It has been amazing day so far. God has challenged me a lot with this camp. I have had to take on responsibility that is larger than i thought i could handle, but i handled it well. It has been fun being in charge of things and making things easier for our people in staff. At the same time i feel exhausted. January is a tough month for me. I have school also, and i´ve been skipping it because of work. I´ll trust in God though.
People from Northpoint have encouraged me a lot. I feel like we are so blessed to have them here. It is amazing how God can bring people together and even though we dont see each other a lot, we still can have these amazing and deep relationships.
One thing that i have learned is that i have to stop pursuing men. Thats not how God ment relationships to start. I just wanna be all His and just follow His guidance for my life.

My time with Ly and Liis

2009-01-10T12:35:00.000-08:00

One of my goals for this year was to spend more time with girls. I have been busy with work and trying to manage my life and i have forgotten my calling. God has always used me with girls, ether just to hang out with them or to help them and guide them. This week i got together with Liis and Ly. They have been to English Camps and they have both gone their own way. Ly is going to Salem Church and Ly is not a christian. At least that´s what she says. I have been close to these girls for quite many years now. I decided that i can´t just meet them and then hope for the next free time to come up, but i immediately scheduled another hang out time. Today. We got together. Went shopping and then I invited them over to watch a movie. We watched August Rush. They really liked it. It was so much fun to be able to hang out with them. They are both very sincere and very good girls! Please be praying for me, that I would take time to hang out with them or meet with them at least 3 times a month.

Blessing continues...

2009-01-06T01:16:00.000-08:00

Hey ya´ll!
I can honestly say that God has blessed me so much. First of all with such an amazing gift as receiving His love and being able to live my life differently. Second of all with a great family that supports me and third of all with amazing friends. I have to say that I love my friends in Estonia, but the same love i have for my friends in the States. It is amazing how dear ya´ll are to me! I have put a goal for this year to pray for each and every one of you at least once a week. For my supporters I will pray daily! I love it! I hope you can give me feedback on your lives as well! Let me know if there is anything I can pray for you!

Today I´m feeling a little bit sick, but i am still at work. Once again I am very exited about this new year. I feel as if it will be a great year and that it will bring some great changes into my life.

First of all i want you to know that my anxieties are losing their grip on me. The other day I just drove to the store by myself. It was extraordinary and I was just so supprised that i did it. I was thanking Lord and I knew that you guys have been praying for me! Plesae continue praying, cuz I will be facing a lot of challenges over the next month and I will put all my trust in Him. Thanks!

Secondly I am so exited about the churches camp on 16-18 of January. please pray for that also, because I feel as if that will bring a lot of healing to people and i truly believe it will help us to grow more together as a family.

Third of all I just need to tell you how much I miss you all! My desire is to see you soon! I believe that if I try hard enough and trust in the Lord, then I´ll be seeing you soon!

I will keep blogging here, but most of my things I will be putting up on my website. Sorry that you can´t comment there, I just cant figure out what is wrong with it. I´ll try to make it better asap!
LOVE Ya´LL!!!

KATI

HTTP://KATIKE.PLANET.EE

The last day of 2008

2008-12-31T02:59:00.000-08:00

So it is the last day of 2008. This day started out as one of the worst days of this year. I have been having money trouble all year, but it was especially hard on Christmas time. People have been a blessing to me though. People who I borrowed the church´s van that I drive right now, have left more gas in it and so i got to drive around more without wasting money on gas. I got to serve others who i didn´t even know.

I also wanted to save up so I could continue dancing and I had the exact money for it in my bank card this morning. It was given to me as a christmas present from a sweet friends family in the USA. Anyway... So i went to town to get some stuff and since i am always so confused in the mornings I thought it is holiday and that its free parking everywhere. Anyway i was a away only half an hour and i got a ticket. My first ticket. I was furious cuz it was the excact amount of money that I was saving for my danging lessons. I was mad and i drove home like a lunatic. I´ve never felt such anger against these ticket people and amongst holiday season. I was pissed off. I got home, put my loud music on and continued to clean up my room.I was angry, but I tried to concentrate on God, cuz i didn´t want to be mad at something I couldn´t do anything about. Still this anger was stronger than my will at first. Then I realized, it wasnt my anger. It was not from God. And i started to talk back to the bad guy(satan). I said that you will not take away my joy! I will not give you the satisfaction in that! You will not ruin the last day of the year. I tried so hard to fight him. I know God was with me...

Then i took a break and checked my mail. I saw some work realated e-mails, some stupid trash and then a friend of mine had written me. His message shocked me, because it made me cry. He wrote that he had just transfered money to my Josiah Venture account to support me. He said its not a lot, but for me that a mount of money is huge. I just started to cry and I still am. I just can´t seem to understand how can God be mercyful and generous with me, when i just really don´t deserve it. How can He love me so much? I just thank Him right now as tears of hope keep falling down my cheeks. It is not what I expected. I cant take that money out right now, but just to know that someone would believe in me so much to donate that much, made my eyes cry. I have really put all my trust in Him with money this month, but still, I never thought He could bless me so much. I just want to pray for all of you who read my Blog and visit my website! I pray that God would bless your lives the way you can never imagine, that He would let you see hom wonderful this world is even when there is so much hurt in it. I want you to encourage to never give up on Him! Let Him fight for you!

I love you all! Once again I feel like a peace of my heart is still in USA with ya´ll. I need to come back there soon!

Be blessed!

Your´s always,

Kati

http://katike.planet.ee/

MERRY CHRISTMAS with a new website!

2008-12-25T02:29:00.000-08:00

HEY EVERYONE!

I have finally finished my basic website building. It is not totally ready yet, but I will be starting to blog there now, so check it out! KATI´s world

Are you in a christmas mood?

2008-12-18T02:54:00.000-08:00

Are you? No? Well check these two videos out and you will be! ;)

There are more there, so have fun! ;)

Tartu Youth awards 2008

2008-12-11T12:38:00.000-08:00

Me and Daniel were asked to host Tartu youthwork awards. It was so much fun! Tartu Mayor spoke and gave out different awards for people who work with youth and different organizations. Categories like best youth worker of the year, best youth activist, best youth organization etc. I found this kind of event just a great opportunity to get to know more people who work with youth and share experiences with them. I just had fun and so did they! They were really glad to have youthy host and so were we! :)It was a great chance to see how the world sees youth work!

How to talk to girls?!

2008-12-09T06:37:00.001-08:00

It´s Sara´s b-day today!

2008-12-09T01:38:00.000-08:00

Today is Sara´s birthday! Why am i writing about her? Because she is one of the people who reads my blog daily. She has been an encouragement for me and I just wanna dedicate today's post for her. She is an awesome girl, who is not only incredibly talented and beautiful, but she is also a great friend and has a big heart! I love her very much! I chose this picture because her husband Casey is also one of the coolest people I know, so I think its okay to put her in front (as in the pics), but still have Casey on her side.
Love you Sara! Happy Birthday!!!!

Last few days...

2008-12-08T08:25:00.001-08:00

We had lots of snow again!

Went to a Dave Benton concert...

Went to church...

I started to think....yeah i do that too!

2008-12-06T01:09:00.000-08:00

Have you ever lost yourself?
Have you ever needed others approval?
Have you ever felt like being like them is so much easier?
Have you ever needed a friend to be there, but they weren´t, but they are quick to judge you when you fall?
Have you ever felt like the stuff that you do is never enough?
Have you ever felt like you fail God too much?
Have you ever sinned?

...I have...

I have been thinking about what it means to be the light in the world. To be different and to remain strong. I think it is the most difficult thing ever. It is surprisingly easy to be a christian and to stay in your own little world. To remain safe. But God did not call us to be safe, He called us to be brave. To look for the lost ones. But what if you start looking for the lost ones and you loose yourself? How do you grow strong as a women that you don´t need compliments from men to feel beautiful? How do you become an example to those who fall right next to you? I know that we can put our trust in God. We can decide not to sin. But what if we decide to sin? Does that take us to the path of failure? Does that make us not His children any more? What if the world gets so close to you that you can´t stand still any more and the ones who once helped you to stand still aren´t there any more? What if you have all the knowledge about Christianity and the rules and suggestions, but it´s all a theory to you? Can you still be strong when you practise your faith?

If you think now that I´ve done something awful...then you are judging already. (and for you to know...i have not). I am just asking the questions to make us think. To make us search for the answers that might not be so easy to find. I challenge YOU to practise your faith. I am not saying you need to go to extreme with it, but step out of your comfort zone.

The life we live is short. It is not meant for us to destroy it, it is meant for us to explore it. I love God. I know that He loves me more than I can imagine. But how do I really know that? Do I really feel that? Or do I just know it because I read it from the Bible and it is stuck in my head? How do I see it?

This is just a time for me to do some thinking. Hope you find some questions here that you haven´t thought for a while.

TWILIGHT

2008-12-03T15:18:00.000-08:00

Okay, so I am officially IN LOVE with this movie! Seriously - so pure, so much passion and yet so sweet. I loved it. If you havent seen it...GO AND SEE! I know i will go again :D
LOVE IT! :D
hihi thats all i wanted to say! :D

Back in school!

2008-12-01T04:12:00.000-08:00

Another 2 weeks of school. School is having a very good effect on me! It is giving me the knowledge I need for my job and for my life. I love my youth work specialty lectures, because they really give me so much. Of course everything is not so simple. I am having hard time with Greek, not because i don´t know it, but because it takes so much time for me to study. I can not finish school this year, but that´s okay. I am still having difficulties with paying for my studies, so please pray for that - in case you have free time ;) !

Sunday with porn

2008-11-30T11:47:00.000-08:00

NO....i did not spend my sunday watching porn...but thats what you thought right?
Anyway...today at church Innar talked to us about porn. The statistics are really scary. Porn is brought to us every day more and more and there is nothing we can do to stop it. But we can stop looking at it. Who has not gotten porn junk mail. It is unbelievable how much it goes around.
It was funny and cool to hear someone talk about porn in church. I guess our church is a little different that all the other traditional churches. I like it. I think it is a great relief for us to be able to talk about things that we run into every day. I think it helps us to see that whatever problems we have...we are not alone in them.

Place for march EC 2009

2008-11-26T03:21:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone!
So today at 7.30am me, Chris, Craig and Daniel went to check out places for our march EC. The road was slippery and lots of snow everywhere. But i had a good feeling about today. SO we arrived to the first place and we checked out the place...then went to another place, checked it out...also very nice! After long time of discussion we decided to go with the first one. I love this place. The woman that I am talking to about using that place is really sweet. It´s actually the place we went with some Atlanta people few years ago to catch fish. It is a little outside of the town which makes it such a nice place. We can fit there enough people, if we should have bigger camp. The hotel is nice and we got a sports hall few km away which we can use for our free time. It has been a blessing to find a place that actually fits into
our budget I add some pictures for ya guys to check it out ;)
I am very exited, hope you´ll be too! ;)

FIRST SNOW!

2008-11-23T13:33:00.000-08:00

So yesterday we had a snowstorm! It was crazy! Roads are full of snow! I don´t remember when was the last time it snowed so much! It has been so fun! I´ll add some pictures to show this craziness!

New design

2008-11-22T13:55:00.000-08:00

SO what ya think? :D

What a great day!

2008-11-19T04:47:00.000-08:00

After 10 months of hard study, constant driving lessons, stress, nerve breaking tests and spending lots of money, all of us who started driving school together : me, Hanna and Eva have our driving licenses. Today Eva had her driving exam and she passed! I was so happy! She called me and said: "I think people think I failed, cuz I´m crying out of happiness!" I wanted to cry to cuz I am just so happy for her! So finally we did it! I am so proud of us! Nothing can stop us now! :D

It is also amazing that she passed cuz today we had our first snow and even the car I´m driving right now does not have winter tires on (need to change soon cuz it was pretty crazy to drive to work today). So I also add some cool FIRST SNOW pictures! ;)

Support raising...

2008-11-11T14:17:00.000-08:00

I started out sending my support letter. Support raising is not very natural thing to to for Estonians. It has been an area where I have had many challenges and times to change and step up. I think it is a huge blessing to be able to communicate with people and ask help. It teaches us how to be humble and how to serve others also.
Please pray for the time I´ll be asking people to support me in any way they feel like God is calling them to support: with prayer, money or any other way. Pray that I would not give up when times get harder and that I would continue to search God and His guidance for my life.
Thank You for reading my blog and just to let you know...
...Love you my brothers and sisters! :)

About Holy Spirit...

2008-11-09T12:14:00.000-08:00

Today Toivo (our pastor) talked to us about Holy Spirit. Who he is and what he does. It gave me something to think about. I have always felt a little curious about spirits, just because I am not very charismatical and I try not to go to extremes with my faith. But what I have learned is that He is real and that in order to be able to follow His guidance we have to listen to Holy Spirit.
God has interesting ways of teaching us. As soon as we hear something new, He wants us to practise it. So after the service we had our Girls Discipleship group. Hanna talked about how to find ourselves. During her talk I just felt how Holy Spirit is telling me thing what I needed to share. I didn't want to cuz i felt that i might offend someone. Finally the voice just got stronger and i got like chills inside. That's when I knew that I need to speak up. So I did and it was amazing what followed after that. We had such an amazing, deep conversations based on scriptures that we read. It was truly amazing and i believe it encouraged us all so much!
So please pay attention to the Holy Spirit inside of you, who want to guide you and lead you in your life and even in your words. He truly is amazing!

Taking medicine does not mean that you lack of faith!

2008-11-06T09:52:00.000-08:00

I had another lecture to translate today. We talked about addictions. The one thing that struck me was this: taking medicine in not a lack of faith! I think as Christians we think that when we start taking medicine we admit to God that we have failed and then we are filled with guilt and shame. I think that that´s wrong! When we have problems in our lives: addiction, anxiety, depression we need to seek help and from those who have been called by God to learn all the sides of medicine and therapy. Todd told us today that taking medicine is not lack of faith. Lets say that a person is a christian and she has a diabetes, should she just not take medicine, because she believes that if she does, she shows God that she has a lack of trust for Him? Should she die just because of that? I believe that medicine is there to help us. I also believe that God can totally heal everything, but in certain circumstances we need to hear what God is telling us. He has told us that we need to be under authority and we need to obey laws, the same thing is with doctors. He wants us to trust them. It has been an awesome experience to be able to learn these things. There is so much out there that we are just blocking out because we don´t know who we are in Christ and what He has said in His Word!

Everything happens for a reason.

2008-11-05T09:33:00.000-08:00

Many of you might now that this week I´ve been more involved in my school that at work. I have been translating one of the lectures we have in the Academy. I thought a long time before I took this job, cuz I was afraid that i might not be good enough for it. I feel like enemy was trying to pull me away from it and now I know why. These few days have been amazing for me. Not because I have actually been able to do it, but because It has been a blessing to me. God has healed and tought me new things about him and about myself also. The guys that I´m translating - Todd Riggs- is such a great guy and it has been a blessing to be able to talk to him more about my fears and just about life. He has been an inspiration for me and I thank God that He brought him over. I hope he is also enjoying his stay. I have two more days of translating him and the he will be heading back to the States.
I just made chocolate chip cookies to take with me tommorrow. Jamm ;)
Ecclesiastes 3:1-15

Red traffic light

2008-11-03T14:53:00.000-08:00

I was laying on my bed trying to pray and go to sleep when this thought crossed my mind. It kept hunting me and I had to get up and write about it. I was thinking about traffic lights. I was thinking how I´m suppose to drive to school tomorrow and there is one traffic light on my way there. I felt fear, because i don´t like those red lights! It means that i have to stop and wait and be patient. I might get anxious while waiting. I really don´t like it. Then I thought about God and how see might see it. For Him its like a test for us. To test our patience. Many times He shows us red light. He says: "Stop, don´t go...wait". And I just wanna go, but NO, I need to wait, because the red lights are there for a reason. Either to protect us or to keep us waiting for the right time or who knows why. I just know that they are there for a reason. So God be praised for red lights that come to our ways. ;)

Halloween party was awesome!

2008-11-02T09:43:00.000-08:00

Thank you all for praying for our Halloween party. It was great! Everything worked out and even though we did have some problems there, it was still a great success! :D
I would say that 95% of student wore a costume. They had such great costumes and they all had so much fun! It was so good to see different people and new people at the party. I know that we definitely had over 100 people there. SO WOHOOO!!!
Here are some pictures of the party!

Please pray for our Halloween party.

2008-10-30T01:38:00.000-07:00

Please pray for Friday. We have our big Halloween party and we are having problems with the club. Pray that everything would work out okay and that we would remain in good relationships with them. Pray that we would have wisdom to handle everything that might happen. We need your prayers more than ever. It could be a huge shift for us for making more contacts among youth in Tartu. I love the youth and I want them to experience something great! So I am already thankful for your prayers! Love you my friends and I´ll let you know how it all works out!

Thanks!

Morning with Wilma

2008-10-29T12:11:00.000-07:00

I was babysitting Wilma today (Märt and Gretta´s daughter). She is just such a cutie! First we played and then we went for a walk. I discovered how cool kids can truly be. She was just so joyful and playful. She did everything i did and she wanted to be close to me all the time. I feel like I should be like that with God. I should be wanting to be close to Him every minute. I should trust Him as Wilma trusted me with everything. Here are some pics of our time together.

God knows where I am!

2008-10-25T12:53:00.000-07:00

I found this on the internet. I don´t know if its true, but even if it is not, I still believe it! Read it and you know you won´t regret it!

Awesome Story

By Ken Gaub

At the time I was driving on 1-75 near Dayton, Ohio, with my wife and children. We turned off the highway for a rest and refreshment stop. My wife Barbara and children went into therestaurant. I suddenly felt the need to stretch my legs, so waved them off ahead saying I'd join them later. I bought a soft drink, and as I walked toward a Dairy Queen, feelings of self pity enshrouded my mind. I loved the Lord and my ministry, but I felt drained, burdened. My cup was empty. Suddenly the impatient ringing of a telephone nearby jarred me out of my doldrums. It was coming from a phone booth at a service station on the corner. Wasn't anyone going to answer the phone? Noise from the traffic flowing through the busy intersection must have drowned out the sound because the service station attendant continued looking after his customers, oblivious to the incessant ringing. "Why doesn't somebody answer that phone?" I muttered. I began reasoning. It may be important. What if it's an emergency? Curiosity overcame my indifference. I stepped inside the booth and picked up the phone.

"Hello," I said casually and took a big sip of my drink. The operator said: "Long distance call for Ken Gaub." My eyes widened, and I almost choked on a chunk of ice. Swallowing hard, I said, "You're crazy!" Then realizing I shouldn't speak to an operator like that, I added, "This can't be! I was walking down the road, not bothering anyone, and the phone was ringing..." "Is Ken Gaub there?" the operator interrupted. "I have a long distance call for him." It took a moment to gain control of my babbling, but I finally replied, "Yes, he is here." Searching for a possible explanation, I wondered if I could possibly be on Candid Camera! Still shaken, perplexed, I asked, "How in the world did you reach me here? I was walking down the road, the pay phone started ringing, and I just answered it on chance. You can't mean me." "Well," the operator asked, "is Mr. Gaub there or isn't he?" "Yes, I am Ken Gaub," I said, finally convinced by the tone of her voice that the call was real. Then I heard another voice say, "Yes, that's him, operator. That's Ken Gaub." I listened dumb-founded to a strange voice identify herself.

"I'm Millie from Harrisburg, Pennsylvania. You don't know me, Mr. Gaub, but I'm desperate. Please help me." "What can I do for you?" She began weeping. Finally she regained control and
continued. "I was about to commit suicide, had just finished writing a note, when I began to pray and tell God I really didn't want to do this. Then I suddenly remembered seeing you on television and thought if I could just talk to you, you could help me. I knew that was impossible because I didn't know how to reach you, I didn't know anyone who could help me find you.
Then some numbers came to my mind, and I scribbled them down." At this point she began weeping again, and I prayed silently for wisdom to help her. She continued, "I looked at the numbers and thought, couldn't it be wonderful if I had a miracle from God, and He has given me Ken's phone number? I decided to try calling it. I can't believe I'm talking to you. Are you in your office in California?" I replied, "Lady, I don't have an office in California. My office is in Yakima, Washington." A little surprised, she asked, "Oh really, then where are you?" "Don't you know?" I responded. "You made the call." She explained, "But I don't even know what area I'm calling.
I just dialed the number that I had on this paper." "Ma'am, you won't believe this, but I'm in a phone booth in Dayton Ohio!" "Really?" she exclaimed. "Well, what are you doing there?" I kidded her gently, "Well, I'm answering the phone. It was ringing as I walked by, so I answered it." Knowing this encounter could only have been arranged by God, I began to counsel the woman. As she told me of her despair and frustration, the presence of the Holy Spirit flooded
the phone booth giving me words of wisdom beyond my ability. In a matter of moments, she prayed the sinner's prayer and met the One who would lead her out of her situation into a new life. I walked away from that telephone booth with an electrifying sense of our heavenly Father's
concern for each of His children. What were the astronomical odds of this happening. With all the millions of phones and innumerable combinations of numbers, only an all-knowing God could have caused that woman to call THAT number, in THAT phone booth, at THAT moment in time. Forgetting my drink and nearly bursting with exhilaration, I headed back to my family, wondering if they would believe my story. Maybe I better not tell this I thought, but I couldn't contain it. "Barb, you won't believe this! God knows where I am!"

Funny Mama jokes

2008-10-23T04:34:00.001-07:00

Okay, i know its not to laugh at these, but I´ve been finding comfort from these lately. So check out ;)
Yo mama's so stupid, she took a spoon to the Super Bowl.
Yo mama's so stupid, when the judge said "Order in the court," she said "I'll have a hamburger and a Coke."
Yo mama's so stupid, when she went by the YMCA she said "Hey, they spelled MACY's wrong."
Yo mama's so stupid, she went to Burger King and thought she was a queen.
Yo mama's so stupid, when she saw a "Wrong Way" sign in her rearview mirror, she turned around.
Yo mama's so stupid, she thought Delta Airlines was a sorority.
Yo mama's so stupid, when she went to take the 44 bus, she took the 22 twice instead.
Yo mama's so stupid, she tried to wake up a sleeping bag.

Soo crazy funny! For those who understand Estonian

2008-10-23T00:55:00.000-07:00

It´s about how 6 year old girl threw some mud on a Russian girl Lexus and the they put that girls parents car on fire. So here is the interview with that Lexus lady. It is unbelievably ridiculous!!!

Family

2008-10-21T10:42:00.000-07:00

I was watching Gossip Girl today and one sentence struck me. "You don´t become a family, just by telling people you are, you become a family,because you wanna be one..." We Christians are supposed to be a family, but today I realized...we can not tell people that we are a family and expect them to belong...people have to wanna be a family. That is just so true! If family is not they wanna be apart of then we have to go deeper and figure out why is it so...is it because their view of family is a father who beats all the time or maybe a mother who is never there? I dunno. Estonian families are so broken and that`s why it is so hard for people to accept this concept of family. It´s a prayer of mine, that we would feel the need and the desire to be a family from now on...and we get that by following Jesus commandment: "Love each other as you love me!". Let´s show people what does it mean to be apart of the real Royal family, The Family Of God!!!!

HALLOWEEN PARTY!!!!

2008-10-21T02:51:00.000-07:00

We are having a HALLOWEEN party for our youth and all the youth that want to come. I won´t say much, but I know that there will be some SWEET suprises!!! I am exited and trying to figure out what I´ll wear...Got any ideas?????

Being a woman...

2008-10-19T12:27:00.000-07:00

So..being a woman... why is it so hard? Why do I feel like my head is gonna explode sometimes? Why do we make so complicated for ourselves? All this drama and worries? Really? Is it all necessary?? It seems that it is so easy for men? You probably have no idea what I am talking about...well that the problem, neather do I! I just feel so overwhelmed with all the thoughts in my head. All my life is in my head and it drives me nuts! When I go to bed i do not just fall asleep, I think about tommorrow, about 5 years from now, then i think about the past and then bast to the future and so on and so on...It is crazy! Behind the wheel I am so easily distracted that sometimes it scares me. WHy do we women always care so much, worrie so much, think so much? I know a lot of times we have to think, cuz men don´t but still...that much? What was God thinking when He made us? I really wanna know! I wanna know why are we like this? There has to be a reason! If you have any good advice or just comments, please comment, I would love to get feedback from you guys. Just how can we think less? I´m not even talking about boy drama all day long, but about work stuff, schoool, friends, family just everything that we deal with. Hit me back!

I got my driver´s licence!

2008-10-16T05:42:00.001-07:00

So yesterday I had another driving lesson. I did well until I totally screwed up and even caused a dangerous situation. Nothing bad happened, but it wasn´t good neather. Anyway. I was upset, my driving teacher was upset. Nothing seemed to go right.
Before I went to bead, I talked to God about it. I asked Him to guide me and to be driving with me. I prayed for peace and wisdom for the next day. I just prayed that His will would be done, but also said, that it would be great if He would consider my money situation. Just in case you know, even though He has provided me everything anyway.
Today at 7:00 in the morning I had another driving class, just be sure of myself. Again I did some things wrong and I felt really dissapointed in myself. I met Eva, went to her place slept a little and when I woke up I was scared. So scared, cuz now it was time to face my fears about the test. Those who know me, might understand how far I have come with my fears to even take that test. But I tell you. I had fears. I was scared and nervous. My hands and legs were even shaking a little bit. Tarmo took me there (he is so sweet!) and we waited for someone to take my papers in. An older guy came. He looked friendly. And he was. I was glad. The car I drove had really senitive breaks, so I actually got to test them a little before I went to drive. I did few mistakes, but I didn´t cause him to hit the breakes, so I was okay. But one thing was amazing. I was on a acclivity (high tide) and I was suppose to stop and then when it was the right time to go up the little hill. I had to have my hand break on and then go. I had not pracised that for some tim, but it was easy. I drove away and the he told me: I thought the car was gonna die in the middle of the road...I was a confused and then I saw it...I had it on 2-nd gear. He was very suprised that I made it...so was I , but I knew that I had help with me... Anyway I think my humbleness helped me a lot too. Just showing him that I don´t know everything, but I´m careful and willing to learn. So for conclusion, I say it was heck of a day! I am so happy in my heart, that I almost cried. It is a huge step for me and a huge think for my self-esteem. I own everything to God. He knew my needs and He met them and even more. So I encourage you to pray more for His will, but also, show Him how much you want some things (but you have to be pure in your heart about them).
Today I made it. But hard times won´t stop here. I have to keep praying and praying for His guidance. That´s all I want in my life, because without Him, I can do only very little, but with Him, the sky is our limit!
God Bless You Brothers and Sisters! Thanks for reading my blog!!!

Driving exam on Thursday

2008-10-14T03:52:00.001-07:00

I am going crazy this week, because my final driving exam is this Thursday. It is scary, exiting and terrifying at the same time. It should not be, because I should trust God, but even though I am trusting in His plan, I am worried and concerned about my money situation, cuz I have spent way too much money on it already. You have to spend about 1100$ to get your licence done in here. I have already spent that amount of money and since I have to pay for all the driving lessons and those are so expensive then, I have been borrowing money from my mom and my brother also supported me a little which was such a blessing. It has been a huge struggle for me and at the same time a huge blessing, because I have had to trust God more than ever. So please be praying for me. I will let you know how my test goes. Until then I just pray pray and hope.
Love,
Kati

Crazy busy!

2008-10-13T05:42:00.000-07:00

Sorry guys about not adding anything here!
I have been just so busy with different stuff like work, volunteer work and then my driving school. I have my exam this Thursday so please pray for me. It is just breaking my wallet so I wanna get it over with. I just wanna give my best and ask God to bless it.
Other than that life is good right now. Still hard, but it´s okay cuz i just discovered that the harder it is the better it is for you to communicate with God. I love talking to Him! I just pour out everything that´s inside of me and he comforts me. It is so amazing how Good our God really is. I just know that very often we don´t thank Him enough! SO as you are reading this...take some time to thank God for even the small things in your life! I think He would love it ;)
Thanks!
Your´s,
Kati!

Thank You Lord!

2008-10-06T01:47:00.000-07:00

Very often we just tell God what we need. We ask Him to provide and to meet our needs. We ask Him to heal and to save our friends. We ask Him to let us make our own decisions or we ask Him to lead us, even when we are not ready to follow. These are all great things to ask, but haven´t you ever felt just so annoyed when someone is always asking stuff from you, instead of just listening to you or actually offering to do something for you. Last night i talked to a friend of mine and he was impressed how I pointed out one thing that i was greatful, do today I decided to only give thanks to Him! So I will say Thanks to God, Jesus for these things:
- Thank You for loving me and saving me from eternal death
- Thank You for giving me a great mom and a great sister
- Thank You for helping me with my fears and failures
- Thank You for giving me a home and a little corner of my own
- Thank You for saving my friend, who I prayed for so long
- Thank You for purifying me
- Thank You for my sweet friends
- Thank You for letting me work at Risttee
- Thank You for my brothers and sisters in Christ
- Thank You for the clothes that i wear
- Thank You for my relatives
- Thank You for all my friends from different countries
- Thank You for my friends in USA, who have supported me in so many ways
- Thank You for all the little miracles You have made in my life
- Thank You for not letting me go
- Thank You for loving me no matter what and for loving me FOREVER!

Someone who cares...

2008-10-04T13:28:00.000-07:00

Not enough love...

2008-10-02T14:40:00.001-07:00

You know those days when you just don´t want to get out of bed because everything is just kinda crappy? Well my day started off very well...spent the night at Eva´s and hang out with her in the morning, got great news that my friend Tarmo and her girlfriend got engaged (WOHOOOOO!) and then just had fun with my friends. Then from some point on my day just sucked. I got depressed, worried, lonely and hurt. Yeah I love Jesus and I know God is good, but that does not always help me to stay stable. I am very emotional girl. When i laugh, i laugh hard, when i cry, i cry hard, when i feel happy, i just shine etc. For the first time in my blog I can honestly say to those who are reading this that I feel lonely. It´s not that there aren´t people in my life or friends or loved ones...it´s just that I feel the lack of love around me. I dunno if it is just me or it is the way the society tells us to live, but I feel like there is not enough love. I feel like a lot of the things we do is just to glorify ourselves instead of God, a lot of times we show love cuz we are supposed to (you know, because Christ loved us first and stuff), but we don´t love because we want to. I dunno...I am just typing these words in here and they don´t make sense to me any more...and its not that its late here...It´s just to love people around us...and that can only come from God...but what if we refuse to accept that love...then what?
Church as family. What a great example. Is it also a reality? Are we truly like brothers and sisters? I dunno. Are you ready to sacrafise? Are you ready to give up your comfortable place in your life? I know I want to because if I don´t then who else will do it for me?
Do you know that I had an awesome time at Czech. It was amazing. I talked to God, He spoke to me, He lead me and guided me. I felt such peace. And now...it´s gone...I´m back in my everyday life and its so freaking hard to hear Him! I hate that! I hate that we go and listen these awesome people speaking what God has put in their hearts and then we are so amazed and then we come back home and everything just continues the way it always has been. It sucks. But what can I do? I will act on it! I will step closer to following Him every day. I do not care what the society tells me, I do not care what the "preachers" preach about it, The only thing I wanna know is what God wants me to do. What is He trying to tell me through His word and through Holy Spirit. I will love those who I used to dislike ( I really have been starting to love them...its wierd and crazy, but it works!) and I will treat everyone the same. I love the fact that God loves us all the same! It does NOT matter who you are or what you look like or if you are saved or not! He loves ME and YOU excactly the same! Gosh how that makes me feel happy and exited. In the matter of fact that just totally made my day! I am loved by someone who is so amazing! I am loved by Our GOD! Our Lord Jesus! Our Saviour! The one who loves no matter what! SO thank You Jesus for Your LOVE!...and to everyone out there...I do love you! But it does not come from me...it comes from God!

New background...

2008-10-01T10:01:00.000-07:00

Hey...visited my site again? Thought you are in a wrong place? No, dont worry you are still at my blog. I just decided that I had enough of that old background so I changed it. I like brown right now and I love chocolate so I thought, what a great template! Also I like to redecorate and change everything around me all the time. I change my room like once a month :D
Anyway let me know what do you think about this background? Is is okay for ya guys? Is it easy to read from here? let me know so I can improve my page!
THANKS!!!!

K.

Back at home!

2008-09-28T13:26:00.000-07:00

Okay so now I´m back home. Oh it is sooo good to sleep in a bad instead of a car! :D Love it...really!
Anyway we arrived 8 in the morning and at 11 started a sunday service. It was a great service. We finished our series on our identity and I am exited to see people realizing it in their lives.
I have been uploading photos and videos from Czech trip all day long so I thought that Ya´ll might wanna see them too...maybe...anyway here they are!
Pictures: http://picasaweb.google.com/katike85
Videos: http://www.youtube.com/user/summer733

Czech trip - Day 5

2008-09-26T15:23:00.000-07:00

So this was our last full day here. It was a beautiful day with lots of sunshine and lots of mercy, knowledge and everything else. I just wanna bring out some of the things I learned today.
- Christ is the head of the church.
- Apart from Him we are nothing.
- Problem- we use Christ to make ourselves look great as leaders.
- People around us need to see Christ, not us!
- You don´t have to be a youth leader or pastor in order to disciple youth!
Here are some pictures of the day...

For more pictures go to DAY 5

Czech trip - Day 4

2008-09-25T14:07:00.000-07:00

So this morning we talked about Church as the Bride of Christ. It was amazing. This guys Cristian is so passionate about what he talks about. It was so great to hear him speak and just feel how he truly believes in what he teaches and wants to make it all happen in his ministry.
Here are some of my notes from today:
- so much what we do in the church is not inspiring for the church to become beautiful.
- instead of trying to fix the problems we have in our church by bringing them out all the time and saying what we do wrong, we should bring out the things we do right and well, cuz nobody will be inspired when they are being put down.
-Speak into being what is not yet there!
-To make something beautiful you have to start with yourself.
-Clean the Bride(church) with the Word, not with your own words!
-I love how the guys here talk about their wives. You can see it from their eyes that they truly care, love and adore them. It gives me hope and makes me want to wait til I find a guy who would look at me the same way! Thanks Mel ad others!
-there is 32,5 million young people in 11 countries who are still seeking...

We also had a soccer tournament where Estonia got 5th place. Jeee :D Oh and the sky was amazing today! So i took like so many pictures of it!

More pictures here DAY 4

Czech trip - Day 3

2008-09-24T14:24:00.000-07:00

So...its our 3rd day here. Today we learned that we as Christians are all just a BIG FAMILY! It is so amazing to actually think about it. It does not matter what the theology of our churches is or what do we do differently...all that matters is that we all love God and He has said in His word, that we are His family, which means that we are all a FAMILY! TOGETHER! It is amazing, but a very hard thing to do in real life. I want to try it, because this is all we talk about to people, right? To love your friends as your brothers and sisters...its awesome!
Then we had learning communities, which were awesome as I heard from people. I went to model making class and I loved it. It was good to hear stories from other countries and just to see how different countries dela with different issues.
After that we had some awesome lunch and then we had some free time. During free time we went to town and I invited our new friends Ema and Miriam to come along. I had so much fun with them, just fooling around the mall. :)
The evening was the coolest part of my day. We had a chance to hear stories of people coming to Christ from different countries and that was just such a blessing to me. I felt like it does not matter from which chruch we are from, cuz God is using different people in differet ways just the ways He sees He can work the best in that country.
So in conclusion I would like to say that today was a great day and God taught me so much! I am still brainstorming all of it, but it is so great to hear Him speak to me.
Now I am gonna go upstairs to my room and read His word, cuz I have not done that for some time now. I have been learning about Him anywhere else but from Bible. Now its time to return to the Word again!
Love Ya´ll my brothers and sisters!!!! :) Trust in Him!
Here are some pictures from today....

Here you can see more pictures of DAY 3

God sees the bigger picture...we very often don´t!

2008-09-24T14:11:00.000-07:00

I have been struggling with this question about why am I doing what I am doing right now for a long time(I mean my job-which is pastors assistant). Finally I got my answer. The reason why I am doing what I am doing is not only because our church would need me,but it´s because God needs me to be there in that position in order to tell the world about our church! It is amazing how I have been able to talk to people about church ever since I started working for Peep. It is so easy to tell people about church and they have really interesting reactions whenever I mention what do i do for work. It is so unusual for them and so they are so interested in it.
Another day I was at my grandmothers b-day and i got to share about our church to my close relatives, which was just such a blessing to me. I actually got to serve everyone at the b-day by just taking peaces of cakes to them.
Another time I met with total stranger to talk about selling and buying cosmetics and during that time we talked more about God and Church than we talked about cosmetics just because the lady asked what do I do for my job.
Now I know for sure that God has a bigger plan and He sees it all! He wants me to go out and share the gospel and he has given me the perfect tool for that! Keep on going my brothers and sisters! God is using each and every one of you in a very unique way!
K.

Great news!!!

2008-09-23T14:43:00.000-07:00

A friend of mine got saved today. I have been friends with him for a bout 5-6 years. He was never really interested in Christianity until couple of months ago and within few months he became from not wanting to know anything about God and not even truly believing in Jesus as God to accepting Christ in his life. It blew my mind when he started asking questions about God. Through that time satan totaly wanted to destroy our relationship, cuz he knows that I´m still the only Christian he talks a lot. I still struggle with this relationship, but I know that now when he is God´s he will be fine. Please pray for my friend, cuz i know that he will need all the prayer to learn more about God and to learn how to be like Christ.
Thanks friends!!! HUGS!!!

Czech trip - Day 2

2008-09-23T13:19:00.000-07:00

So...day two...got up in the morning and had a wonderful breakfast. Here is actually a picture what it looked like. few of them...
Hanna eating...and then my breakfast...

so the day continued...we had a seminar with Caesar and he is just awesom e! He was teaching us how to tell the story of God! And what struck me the most was that through out the story God is just simply asking ask: Do you trust ME? Do you believe in ME? Its so amazing how much I got out of that seminar! So Great thanks to Caesar! :) Here are some pictures of it also!

After the seminars were over we had some time and then we had dinner. Then a lot of other people came who weren´t here for the pre-conference. It was so good to see friends from last years conference and friends from 2 years ago.
Me and Hanna kind of walked around and just took some pictures...here they are...

At the evening meating we talked about church...daa right? haha no actually it was very refreshing and cool! I´m not gonna get into that but I´ll put some pictures here about the cool set up they had...

Here are some more pictures of the DAY 2

Czech trip - Day 1

2008-09-22T07:17:00.000-07:00

So...we arrives to Czech 8 am. We made our record and drove from Tartu, Estonia to Malenovice Czech in 16 hours. We drove all night so we were all really tired when we got here.
On our way we saw a terrible car crash. The car was broken to half basically. it was so scary. God protected our travelling a lot and I am very greatful to Him!
I will be writing here about each day of our trip and I´ll be posting pictures and videos :)
So keep in touch!!! ;)
Here are some of the pictures of our traveling...

For more pictures go to: My album

Leaving for Czech!

2008-09-20T12:29:00.001-07:00

Tomorrow at 3 we leave for Czech Republic. We are going to the JV Fall conference as we do it every year. I am exited. I love the place where we are going and I love to travel. Those who know me, know that I am also a little anxious about it, but I´m gonna be okay, because I have the greatest friend with me - Jesus Christ!
Yesterday, it was my grandmothers (father´s side) 80´th birthday. It was fun cuz I got to see relatives that I usually don`t. I got to see my aunts daughter who is now 19 years old. I haven´t seen her like 10 years at least. She is deaf, so I has hard time communicating with her, but i really tried and I found a way also- with my phone! :D She is so pretty! I also saw her brothers. Grandfather was really sweet and I was happy to see him so energetic. I also got to see my bro and his family. It was a great time.
Okay I gotta get some sleep now and pack...so next time I´ll be writing from Czech already!

How God can use a random conversation...

2008-09-16T11:29:00.000-07:00

So it was just another day in my life. Me and my girl Hanna went to talk to these "agents" who sell cosmetic. They wanted to introduce us their new perfume. We went there with a little confusion and not very trusting. We got there and they were really sweet. We got talking and they asked me what do i do as a job. I said that I'm a pastors assistant. As soon as I said so, they got really interested and started to ask all different kind of questions about church and why am i there. Of course we talked about the cosmetics stuff too, but most of the time we just talked about God and Christianity. It was so amazing. We invited them to our church and they were really interested. God used that time to show how he can work through us in every situation. It was awesome. And of course we also started to do that cosmetics stuff. Which is a very cool thing :D

Sorry!

2008-09-08T07:53:00.001-07:00

I'm sorry for not keeping you guys in touch. I have been running around and trying to get things done. I passed my driving lisence writing exam and in a month I´ll be taking the driving exam also. We also had a bear week, which was a week for university student. We had a team from NP over again. It was such a great week! A long and hard one, but really good one! I´m gonna miss everyone who was here!
I haven´t had much to write about lately so I´m sorry. Well actually there are quite many things going on, but I just dunno how to write about it. I know that when I´m ready, I´ll write about it all!

Til then...Peace with ya´ll!

Make Some Noise!

2008-08-26T01:09:00.000-07:00

I just really like this song! Make some noise my brothers and sisters! Share God´s love and make Him proud!!!

God´s love will save you!

2008-08-23T10:03:00.000-07:00

God loves you! Do You know that? Do you really believe that also? He loves you so much! Sometimes...okay quite often it is so hard for me to understand his love. It is because as human beings we are not able to love like He does. I learned that just a week ago. I got hurt. I got hurt really bad. I was betrayed and I felt I could trust no one. I hated the person who hurt me and I thought I will never again talk or think about it. I tried to get all the hate out of me, but it did not work. I tried to fight with it- it didn't work. Then I realized something. How can I hate another human being? God loves me. I have messed up many times. He still loves me. One of His greatest commandments was to love one another. And what am I doing? I was depressed when I realized it, because as a human being I don't have that much love in me. I felt lost. I felt really empty on love and I felt disappointment, fear and hurt. But then I prayed. Not only once, but many times during one day. And the next day when I remembered that person who hurt me and I tried to be angry...I wasn´t. I was wow´d. I was like...hey God....umn so You like really did answer my prayer? Thanks? But wait...so like no more anger? Like not even a little? NO. NONE! The only thing I had in me was love. I felt love for that person. I forgave and moved on. I still test Him sometimes trying to hate that person. I can´t. Cuz HE CHANGED MY HEART! And for that I am forever grateful! WHEN YOU NEED LOVE- PRAY FOR IT! WHEN YOU NEED TO FORGIVE-PRAY THAT GOD WOULD HELP YOU! HE will! I promise you!

I love my country!

2008-08-22T00:10:00.000-07:00

ESTONIA...this is my country. I am proud to say that I am Estonian. Estonians have always loved singing and we still to. We sang ourselves free and we keep doing it! This Tuesday we had our Night Song Festival. I didn´t get to go, but I heard only positive impressions of it. Estonians will stick together no matter what. Whenever I see us as a nation gathering together I know that we will be okay! Here is some videos of the Night Song Festival! You can get more information if you just click on the video. You should definitely check out the lyrics to the song!

Watching these videos I just cant stop the tears of joy. No matter how much we fight with each other here or how much we think that the government sucks, on times like these we understand how lucky and blessed we are to be free again! I just love to watch people holding hands and singing together. It is not fake! This is all real! This is what we are like when we come together! There is definitely something great going on in Estonia. God is moving our hearts and souls here! We should be proud to be Estonians and we should give all 110% of ourselves to serve our nation and people around us! I LOVE ESTONIA! Glad I could share it with ya`ll! :D

Forgiveness and prayer

2008-08-20T12:36:00.000-07:00

As I was uploading this one video here and translating it I realized how I have done wrong with understanding God´s grace. I got really hurt by my friend and instead of forgiveness I stressed about it and felt so much anger inside. Now I have forgiven him and even though it takes me some time to trust my friend again at least I will know that I have done the right thing. To forgive someone who has hurt you so bad is not easy, but it makes everything better and it helps you to grow closer to God again. My friend is in a really bad situation right now. He has a heart problem and he just had a heart attack today. He is only 24 so I am really scared for him. I made the decision to forgive him and then i heard about his heart attack. I know now that we have to hurry with forgiveness. I will be praying for him a lot. Please pray for him too. I am still hurting, but God has shown me that no matter what we have to forgive and keep loving people around us.
And all my friends...just know that I love you all so much!!!

Officially part of Josiah Venture now...

2008-08-20T11:39:00.001-07:00

So after some thinking and talking to God I have decided to join JV to continue to work for Risttee church. As many of you might know, I was really worried about my work and everything else that that includes money. Now I have taken a step of faith and I try to trust God in all those matters. I am exited how God will use me and I wanna serve Him more than ever. So please keep me in your prayers that I would be able to raise support somehow and that I would seek for wisdom for my work also. I want to thank every and each one of you who reads my blog! You guys keep me writing! Love you all!!!

North Point church experience

2008-08-19T13:25:00.000-07:00

When we were in the States we went to the Northpoint Church and after it we video taped what we liked about it. So here it is...for ya´ll Americans I also added translation under the video...sorry that I could not make subtitles... I just did not know how to do that ;).

Hey...so we just went to North Point Church...and....That was Lynsey...and so we sent to the service there...Clay spoke. Clay Scroggings and we heard Todd Fields lead worship. It was SOOOO COOL! And Clay talked about how God can be mad and how we need to be forgiving and how do we understand God´s grace and how we understand it only when we can be loving and graceful with other people and take them as they are, then we can kinda understand how Great,Awesome, Powerful is God`s love.And umn...what else did he say? That we don't understand His grace...So yeah basically he told a story about Solomon who married a prostitute and how he forgave her even though she cheated on him and how we need to be forgiving all the time and constantly...and when we start doing it constantly then that means we have understood God´s grace. This church was huge! So beautiful!There was so many people!One lady was kinda rude and did not understand why we were so exited to be there,but i think many people there do not realize how lucky they are...they say they understand, but i still think they don't.Because I felt like they are so used to having all that! And it was just so amazing! I have no words to describe it.I´m just so exited about it.....But I´ll let you talk now too! What you felt and liked there? Hanna tell me...I was encouraged by his talk. When Clay talked about what it means if God is jealous for us when we are not faithful or when we are starting to look for other things. It´s like when there is a man and a wife and the wife cheats on him and the man forgives him. It´s just so powerful. And worship with Todd Fields was just something incredible. When you watch DVD-s and see how people talk and worship there...its so different when you are actually there. These past few days have been so blessed already! God is just so so faithful! He really is! Isn´t He?! Eva, how did you like it? I know that God is working in me, but i just don't know what is He doing right now, but He is working in me. I was really touched by this last song...what was it...He loves us so...It´s a really really good song! So you really enjoyed it huh? And we also met Clay, which was cool.So we are finishing up for right now...but we will talk to you soon again...Ciao!

Dreaming with a broken heart

2008-08-19T12:42:00.000-07:00

As some of you might know I spent the weekend in Finland. It was a cool weekend because I got to travel with my sweet girl Evelin and get to see my friends in Finland. It was also a terrible trip because God challenged me in ways that I never thought He would. Because I decided to be loyal to God I got really hurt and I am still aching from pain. It´s the kind of pain that hearts physically in your heart and soul. In the midst of it all I still praise God for challenging me and making me go through this, because I trust that He has a perfect plan for me! Anyway all of this got me writing some lyrics again. Dunno what to do with them, just felt like I gotta put them here right now.

The happiness we experience lasts only a minute
we can never know when the time of tears knocks on our door
the heart thats so fragile and has love in it
can be broken and it hurts so much more
In this pain I stand right in front of you
and I cant tell you how much it hurts
I want to tell you to make me better instantly
but it feels like there´s a reason for all of it too

I run and forget about all that happened
I run and try to find my way
I run and imagine how it would end
if I would just trust in You.

A great quote!

2008-08-13T13:34:00.001-07:00

"You´ll never know that Jesus is all you need until Jesus is all you have!"

SAY...

2008-08-13T12:48:00.000-07:00

I was just listening to John Mayer´s song "Say". It keeps repeating...say what you need to say...so I will...
Ever since I got back from USA I have seen so much heart ache, so much pain, so much joy and so much vain. I have been to the deepest and darkest places and I´ve walked in the light. I want to say it out loud: seeing the world will change your life! Going to USA changed my life just as I always new it would, but i never thought that it would make such difference in my life. When I say this, then I don´t mean that I would be crazy in love with USA and ready to move there. All i really mean is that seeing the world and different people makes you see things much more clearly. It makes you understand how similar people still are and how much the culture around is really impacts us. Talking to Evelin I started to miss everyone I met in the States so much! It is so weird how in such short time you learn to love people who you might know only for days. It amazing how God kinda knits our hearts together as we are brothers and sisters in Christ. I think it is amazing that we really are a family!There is one thing I want to say more: I want to say that each and every one of my friends that I have met in the States or while they were here that you all have found a special place in my heart. I love you as my brothers and sisters in Christ! This love is real and everlasting like God´s love for me! Thank you for being in my life! I´ll be praying for you!!!

Funniest kid!

2008-08-12T09:53:00.000-07:00

I have seen this like so many time but i still can´t get enough of it. Check it out! It´s so funny!

War in Georgia

2008-08-12T01:50:00.000-07:00

I have been so busy with my own life lately that I haven´t had time to read newspapers or watch TV. I was surprised when I started to hear about war in Georgia. It is just really scary for me as an Estonian, because Russia is just acting like a lunatic. Estonians are afraid that Russia can do the same thing to Estonia one day. It has been predicted by these fortune tellers or whoever they are that we will loose our Independence again in 10 years. Reading all these news and thinking about it I got anxious and so I stopped reading the news. I thought to myself. What can I do? The only thing I can do is Pray. So I prayed. I prayed for our president and for all the other. For the countries in war and those who are next to them. For the families that have lost someone and those who are fighting for their lives. As i finished I kept thinking about how important it is to share gospel with my friends right now, because we never know when tomorrow can be too late. But in the midst of it all I am so grateful that we have such an awesome president. He truly makes me feel much safer in this country. He is a man who is smart, educated and does not run to conclusions or making aggressive decisions. So I will keep praying for him also, that God would give him more and more wisdom how to act in these situations. "Ignorance is a blessing" said a friend of mine. Right now I agree. The less I know about this war the less I get anxious. All i have to do is pray that our Heavenly Father would work in those people´s hearts who are responsible for all this. So I encourage you to join me in prayer. Because God has said : "Where two or three have come together in my name, I am there among them." Matthew 18:20.

God´s number on speed dial.

2008-08-11T07:50:00.000-07:00

I´ve been reading this book that one of my friends, Chris, gave me. It is called "Facing your giants" by Max Lucado. I was supposed to read it a long time ago, but I guess I was not ready. So finally I started to read it and it has been amazing.
Today I was reading chapter 8 and i found some stuff that I just wanted to share with ya´ll.
It talks about how in David´s life he always turned to God first, but not this one time. He was running from Saul and he was giving up. Instead of talking to God, he talked to himself. He also talked to his friends, but didn´t receive any good advice. Talking to himself made him depressed and giving up hope. Waves of guilt started to crash in. He decides to hide out with the enemy. Because he gives up on a fight he feels relief and he thinks that this relief is good. When we give up or stop resisting our giants we feel temporary relief also. But it is only temporary. So was his relief temporary. How we handle our tough times stays with us for a long time. Every decision we make stays with us for a long time. How do you manage your dark days? When we are in the middle of our dark days we seem to have no hope and we think there is no solution to this...but there is! We have to pray: Be quick to pray, says the Bible! You won´t want to! That`s for sure! Slumping people love slumping people. Hurting people love hurting people. We love those who commiserate and avoid those who correct. Yet correction and direction are what we need. Be quick to pray and don´t give up! David did that when he realized everything he had done wrong.
"David found strength in the Lord his God" 1.Samuel 30:6. You will also find your strength in God!

Sweet quotes about friendship...

2008-08-11T07:21:00.000-07:00

To Sara!

2008-08-10T11:25:00.000-07:00

This blog entry is for Sara Hanks Giessen! She is an awesome girl I met couple of years ago when she came to the mission trip to Estonia. We connected well and it was a start of a beautiful friendship. I also went to Atlanta in june and saw her there. We got to spend some good times together and I just enjoyed it so much!Now this last week she was here again with 4 other people from NP team. She was here with her husband Casey. One thing that just blows my mind is that she came here to serve us just few days after they got married. I don´t know if I would be ready to step out of my comfort zone like she did. Now they are going to spend their honeymoon in Estonia, Latvia and so on. It has been just so awesome to have her here.
I have been blogging for quite a while and I´ve had my up´s and downs. I haven´t been updating my blog as much as I should and she was the one who inspired me to keep writing and to keep it regular. Thank You so much Sara! I just loved the time we spent together. I know that it was not enough but it was excatly how much God wanted us to have! I love you and I this blog entry is just for you, to say thank you for everything! You have a very special place in my heart. You have an amazing heart and you are just so sweet and kind! I have learned a lot from you and I know that I will be forever greatful to God that I met you!

LOVE YOU!!!

Missing my friends Brett and Scott!

2008-08-07T23:26:00.001-07:00

This summer we had a privilege to have to guys from NP for interns. They did a great job being here, helping out and building relationships with students. They also taught me many things. Like having some long talks with Brett made me realize how much Christians need each other. We really do need encouragement and support from fellow Christians. I think many times we think that we can do it on our own, but the truth is we can´t. Because alone we become very week and it is so easy for satan to attack us then. Together we can stay strong and if one of us falls, then others should be there to help him to get up. So this is my prayer and my challenge for you guys out there - encourage and love your brothers and sisters in Christ. Because if we can not even do that, then how can we love the "lost" ones?

God chose YOU...

2008-08-07T14:23:00.001-07:00

So you know how in the Bible God chooses different people to do different stuff. Like how He chose Moses and David and well all those other people. One thing I have been thinking a lot lately is what kind of people are in churches around Estonia. Most of the people who are really committed and always volunteering are the people who are not most professional and usually the are not the most "popular" people. We also have many "outcasts" who don`t really fit in anywhere. So even think about myself. I am not perfect. I am not even close to it. I have done things in my life that I wish I had not done. I haven´t been Christian my hole life and I have been struggling most of my life. I still struggle. One of the coolest thing about God is that He does not choose the most "popular" or talented people to do the great work of His. He chooses the outcasts and the little people. He chooses young and little people. He chose David! He was kind of like an outcast. God took Him and used Him in such great ways! And to know that David struggled, He had hard times, but He stayed faithful to God and He became a king! He was awesome! Whenever I feel like God is trying to do something great with me I also feel the pressure of the society where these so called "little" people wont get a chance to change the world and I feel like why would I be chosen by God to do anything big? But you know what. He chooses us! He did not come for rich and famous people. He did not come for talented and popular people. He came for outcasts and for lonely people. So how great is it to know that no matter what, if He chooses us, we can become GREAT! I want to be great, in whatever He chooses me to do!

The woman that God wants me to be...

2008-08-05T13:23:00.000-07:00

Today I realized after a long time that I want to become the woman God created me to be. I want to be everything He designed me to be. I want to obey Him, to trust Him, to lean on Him, to go wherever He wants me to go and so on. It was a good discovery. I haven´t felt so sure of where I´m going in a long time. Right now I have realized that there is a time for everything and I just need to trust in Him more.
Proverbs 31:30 "Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised."

God´s letter to YOU!!!!

2008-08-04T14:21:00.000-07:00

My Child,

You may not know me, but I know everything about you. Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up. Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways. Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image. Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being. Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring. Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived. Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation. Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live. Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother's womb. Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born. Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me. John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love. 1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. 1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child and I am your Father. 1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father. Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand. James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love. Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore. Psalms 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing. Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you. Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession. Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul. Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things. Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me. Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires. Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine. Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager. 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you. Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart. Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes. Revelation 21:3-4

And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth. Revelation 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus. John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being. Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you. Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins. 2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. 2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you. 1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love. Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me. 1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again. Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen. Luke 15:7

I have always been Father, and will always be Father. Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is…Will you be my child? John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you. Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad,

Almighty God.

2008-08-04T14:11:00.000-07:00

“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”

Isn´t that just so true?

Confused...

2008-08-02T00:30:00.000-07:00

Last couple of weeks in my life have been awesome and at the same time challenging. I think I´m more confused about life than I´ve ever been.
God just keeps putting me in situations where I have to stand up and do whats right even when i don`t feel like it. At the same time He shows me what it´s all for. Then the distractions come again. So i just keep pushing and pushing through this life.
I bet most of you have no idea what I`m talking about. I know I´m confused so don`t worry! :) Still I just wanted to let you know that sometimes confusion is good: “If I look confused it's because I'm thinking”. It means that we are thinking about our lives and the desicions we make. I would like for you to take a minute and think about your life also! Just think where does God challenge you and are those challenges for a greater purpose maybe?
Hold on friends! It´s worth it! :)

2008-06-27T04:49:00.000-07:00

Those who know me, know that I am very blunt. I say what i mean and if i don`t like something I am definitely gonna let you know about it. Some call it stubbornness, some call it attitude, I call it being me. I also love to compliment people if they are doing something great or the look good. I am very open minded, but at the same time I won`t let anyone really close.
So you know about those times in life when you have like the best time of your life and then after that joyful period everything is just going down hill? Well I just had the most amazing time in my life when I was visiting my friends in USA and the minute I got back everything turned gray. Right now, i have no idea why I came back. I am sad to say that I really don´t like it here. I love my friends and family, but there is nothing that would really keep me here in Estonia. As I was traveling I fell in love with traveling itself. I love to see different people and to get out of this little Estonia. I am not saying that there is something wrong with Estonia, I´m just saying that I don`t feel like I would fit here any more. I blended in USA so well. I loved the society and the way God made me realize so many things there. As Christians, many times we get so involved and start arguing about God´s word, that we forget the basics. Like loving each other. Taking care of each other. All that kind of stuff.
Right now...as in right now 15 o clock on Friday I feel like i just wanna run away from here. There is nothing really holding me back except lots of money i own to my mom and my school that I´m taking a year off anyway.
I am not really sure why am i writing this. I guess I just need to make sure that I get this frustration out of me. As for now, my only prayer is that God would just hold me, cuz I feel like I wanna just slip away, not from God but from religion and the stuff we Christians get sometimes stuck with.
To all Estonians...don´t worry, It´s just a period that goes by. I won´t leave you...not yet!

Wishes...

2008-05-28T11:27:00.001-07:00

We will be in the States from June 6th to June 20th!

2008-05-22T03:59:00.000-07:00

SO here it goes...we got our VISA and our tickets to USA! And guess what we are so exited to come! It has been a hard month with planning the trip, financially and school plus work. But you know what...God has pulled me closer than ever, He has showed me His grace, His plans and His will in my life. He really wants us to go to USA and even though little devil is trying to screw things up, we hold our heads high and trust in the Lord. I have had problems with my health already, with my computer, with financial stuff, relationships. It has been amazing how God has been on my side though! He has taught me to be humble, not to worry, not to lean on things of this world, but to lean on Him! We still have quite stressed out problems with money but we are trusting Lord with every single detail!
Whenever I keep losing the goal of this trip or want to give up on it, God reminds me this picture from English Camp the way He made my heart ready for going to USA. It has been so crazy what He has done in my life and within me!
I am just so in love with the Lord right now! He is amazing and He deserves every little praise from us!
Love you my friends and see you soon! Keep praying for us, so that we could be bold and strong in the Lord!

Sometimes its hard not to worry

2008-05-18T10:54:00.000-07:00

So we have been planning this trip to USA for some time now, about 2 months. Tomorrow we are going to get our VISA-s. My biggest worry is that Hanna would get a VISA too. I am just trying to trust that God is in control and His plan will come true! I am also a little frustrated, because i don´t want to disappoint any of our friends in the States if would have to go a little later. I am just trying to trust God in everything, with tickets prices and stuff. It is a little hard, because I am used to being in control. I like to be in control and i am good at it :D
Anyway, please pray for me, Hanna and Eva, that we would have trust in the Lord and that we would do whatever He wants us to do!
I love you all!

Visiting USA!

2008-04-24T06:33:00.000-07:00

If you feel like You would like to support me and Hanna, then here is a way you can do it: Click on the button below and follow the instructions of the site. Thank You so much already for everything you have done! I look forward seeing you all in the states!

If you have any questions...just let me know by writing me: kati@goingup.ee

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2008-04-24T06:31:00.001-07:00

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PayPal custom service rocks!

2008-04-16T12:54:00.001-07:00

So as you might know, i have been having problems with PayPal. It has been such an frustration, but I finally got a chance to call them. I tried calling them before but i had to call the nearest place which was Ireland and they just could not hear me okay. So now i called to USA. I started talking and she asked me my number. It was a machine but freaking smart one. I told my number and it actually got it right. So awesome. Then they had to transfer me few times. When I finally started to talk to this guys, he asked me to spell my name. I tried once, tried twice, for some reason letters i, e just mix up in my head. Finally I started laughing a little and said, I´m sorry I can not spell very well and he kinda laughed too. that was funny! Then i continued and he was just so nice! I just love the way they treat people or their voice tones! In Estonia everything basically sucks. You get screamed at or they just ignore you. SO i just wanted to let you know that I love custom services in Pay Pal! Makes me wanna call them all day long! :D

English Camp 2008

2008-03-24T12:13:00.001-07:00

Hey Ya´ll! So I was thinking that I should write about this English Camp! It was amazing and it changed my life! I dunno even where to start, so I just start from the beginning.

First of all I have had couple of hard months, just because I was on a sabbatical and the started to work at a different job. I am now Peep (our pastors) assistant. It is great, but it is a hard job. Lots of details and planning, still I love it. Anyway I had a bit hard time with getting used to it and because of English Camp coming up so fast I has some stressful times.

I knew that English Camp is going to be awesome and I knew that satan will use everything to stop me from going and making a difference. I am so glad that God has already won all the battles because that´s what keeps me going.

Anyway the day before our EC training we had our youth night called LIFT. Daniel´s girlfriend Eleri has been involved in church for many years now and this Friday she made a decision and accepted Christ. It was just an amazing encouragement to see people lives changing even when we are ready to give up our hope. So everyone was just soo exited that it pretty much changed the hole attitude against EC.

Saturday we had our training and it was lots of fun. We have not had that much fun in training like ever i think! :D So it was a good bonding time and just fun time.

Sunday we went to church and after church we pretty much left to go to Vinni to prepare for EC. We got there and in the evening we had a prayer walk. We had a room prepared with different stops. You could pray for forgiveness, read stories, hold nails to remember Jesus´s death for you and have silent moments just to listen to God and be still. We also had one stop where we had a story to read and some stones. The story was about David and Goliath and how David had God besides him when he went to the battle. We had to hold a rock and just pray. That`s where I broke down. I saw God showing me a picture: me throwing rocks at my fears and i keep throwing and nothing happens, sometimes i can beat it down, but it still arise. So then i realized: I need God to be there with me. I can not do it on my own. No matter how much i knew it before i never realized until that moment when i was holding a rock in my hands with actually was a shape of a heart, which reminded me how much God loves me. So i just cried...And I thanked God for that picture! I still do thank God not cry of course! :D

The hole week was just amazing. First I had a great small group partner who just opened up and really lead the small group so well! I was impressed and I just loved watching him lead with Christ in his heart! Then seeing all these people from across the world being able to share God´s love in such an amazing ways was just amazing! The way Bob shined in Christ made me wanna cry. He was a true example of how God wants us to handle different hard times. I praise the Lord for Him and I pray that He would bless his and Tara´s marriage! I also can not leave mentioning how great pastor Tom is. He is just such an amazing leader. How he cares and guards his people. He is a true role model and even a greater dad. He is just one of the sweetest guys I have ever met! I know God has touched so many lives through him and I praise Him for touching my life through Tom also! And of course his son Jeff...that guy is just a sweet and caring person who probably is always surrounded by girls, but he never lets his guard down and he always finds a way to lead people to Christ. He also was kind enough to ask me on my first date which was not even so much about going on a date, but just sharing God´s love through nice manners, cuz we never do any dating in Estonia. :D

It does not mean that the rest of the people from Ohio did not influence me. Every single one of them gave me something to think about. Each one of them show´d me God´s love! And I want to thank you all for that! I will be praying for you all and I know that what happened this march will never be forgotten! God was there! And now He wants us to go and live it out what He did in our lives in that camp!!!

Anyway... the camp was amazing and I can not even describe how much I miss it. Pretty much right after camp, this Saturday we went to a worship night and Monika from camp got saved. I was just amazed how much God had done in one week! I also saw Janeli singing and I was just amazed how far God has taken her and how much she has changed over the years and how much God has used her! I just cried and praised the Mighty One!

Oh one other thing. I have been so scared to even thing about flying to the States. Well in this camp God gave me peace and told me that I am finally ready...after 6,5 years waiting I am not afraid to go. It has been one of the most freeing things in my life right now. I am ready to go. Now I just wait for the right moment, cuz the time has come! So please be praying for me, because I want to visit you all!

HALLELUJAH! (as Oliver would say)!!!! I LOVE THE LORD!!!!

Bekah & Marenda in Estonia

2008-03-24T11:15:00.001-07:00

So Bekah and Marenda arrived! Wohhoooo! I was waiting and waiting for this day to finally get here. Now they are here. Its been such awesome few days! I see God working in different places and in different lives and it is so great to share God´s love.

They have been such a blessing to me. Having friends who come over from the other side of the sea is just awesome! Spending time with them makes me realize how big God really is. He is working everywhere. Not only in Estonia, but literally everywhere. I think sometimes i forget that.

So anyway We have had some crazy fun together. We also went to a club one night and we had so much fun! Just hanging out with our friends and actually having fun is just so great. What i loved the most was that I got to be free and overcome some stuff again. My fears.

We spent a lot of time just walking around Tartu and going to cafe´s. It was fun to hang out with different people.

I loved the prayer time we took together. Just talking about life made me realize how i am not the only one with problems. not that i never knew that, it just seems like everything is so glamorous in US sometimes.

I miss my sweet friends so much, but I will keep praying for them and I will see them soon in US! LOVE YOU BEKAH AND MARENDA!!!

God´s sense of humour...

2008-03-03T11:33:00.001-08:00

You know when sometimes you hear someone talking about how they took time for God and then their hole day was so much better! Well for the past few weeks I have been hearing that from more than one person. SO I decided to try it. Well guess what...God has weird sense of humor. Instead of making my day perfect and longer. He made it crazy and short. I dunno what is up with that, but I realized something...God makes us go though hard times to see how we can handle hard times and still praise Him through it. So pay attention to what He is trying to tell You!

Some days are better than others

2008-03-03T07:47:00.001-08:00

Today just sucked! It´s only 17 a clock and there has not been a single thing that would make me happy or joyful. I am very blunt, am I not? I am just so frustrated with everything right now that I do not wanna do anything. And in this hole mess I need to remember that I want to worship God with my attitude. Whoever said it is easy, definitely has some sugar overdose! It is so hard. I do not wanna think about all the bad things, but whenever I stop something else comes up that tears me even more down. I wish i could just hide under a blanket and not to go out or do anything else today. Just let this day pass by...I just wish...

Shut up and drive!

2008-02-27T11:11:00.001-08:00

We had anothe r driving lesson today with Hanna. It was fun and i think both of us are getting more and more into this driving thing. We also got to drive or participate in an ambulance slippery drive. That was scary but fun. Some pictures and us:

Empty fridge causes mice to dye...

2008-02-27T01:36:00.001-08:00

Yesterday evening I was thinking about what to write in here, but I could not think of anything. This morning I went to work and I was quite tired so I wanted to make some coffee even though I don´t drink coffee a lot. So i was looking around if there anything to snack. i saw the fridge so I opened it. Then I screamed. I screamed cuz in the fridge on top of the butter there was a dead mouse. Legs spreaded out and probably starved to death. So basically there is this little cute mouse starved to death because there was no food in our church office fridge. Well it is a really old fridge so you actually should not put any food in there before you clean it like real nicely! But i thought it was so funny. In a church where we try top feed people with His word we starved to death a little mouse. Anyway, to see the sarcasm in this story I will add some pictures here also!

New job.

2008-02-27T01:30:00.001-08:00

Hey everyone! I know that I do not go very personal in my blog, but i try to open myself more and more each time. Well this news about me getting a new job. As many of you already know i used to work as a youth center director in our churches youth center. But because we had to move we lost our place. Now my pastor Peep and I talked about new opportunities for me to still work in the ministry, cuz I just love it so much! And he as a really giving person and a great man of God gave me an opportunity to work for him as his assistance. It has been a great time for me because I love this job and I can see the importance of it. SO thank you all for your prayers and your support! I will do my best to serve God and You!

Love You all!

Mr. Right...

2008-02-23T12:06:00.001-08:00

Went to the movies with my girls tonight. We went to see "27 dresses". It was a great movie. Got me thinking about my future husband. I still try to imagine what he looks like and what will he do when he meets me. I guess I just keep thinking about when is he coming. I like being single, but it does not mean that i won´t think about finding the right guy. I just hope that where ever he is right now,that he would make the right choices in life. I know I try to do everything in my power to be ready for my Mr. Right if he should show up some day. Praying for you my Mr.Right!

Crazy few days...

2008-02-12T12:02:00.000-08:00

Okay so the weekend started with a nice surprise. I was behind my laptop and I was drinking water. Somehow I managed to spill the water and it also went on my laptop. That was a sad day! I think my computer just passed out! So I took it to my friend Tarmo and as he realized it was toasted. No way to save it. The saddest part was that the hard drive was broken too. All my information about school, work, pictures, and lyrics were gone. EVERYTHING. I was so frustrated. I still don’t know if I can save anything, but I will take it to my brother so maybe he can do something about it. Also being without computer is just crazy. Nothing makes sense :D I will manage though. So this was the first "nice" thing to happen to me.

Yesterday we had our home group which went so well! I had great time and the youth too. They are the coolest! We are taking elements, so they really love the videos with people testimonials. Glad to have a new girl with us. She is just wonderful.

Second thing was that I had my first driving lesson today. We got to the driving space and first we had to get to know the car. That was nice. Then Hanna drove. She is good. The funny thing was that when things got a little confusing she pushed the gas instead of breaks. That was fun. Okay so it was my turn to drive. First before I even got inside of the car I hit my head against the edge of the car. Little embarrassing.... then nothing made sense for me in the car...I guess I was too nervous. Finally I did pretty well but I really thought it would be easier. Anyway got out of that lesson and went to the theoretical driving lesson where I could not stay awake so I drank a 0, 5 l energy drink to stay awake, which made my kind of hyper and talkative: D Anyway i had fun!
Got home and started to rearrange my room, cuz we got new beds (couch-beds). That’s what I loved the most. I had been waiting for them for 6 weeks!!!!!
Anyway I am tired so I better go to sleep, but I just wanted to stay that everything is gonna be okay! God has a plan and I am so grateful for that!

It´s good to see friends during winter time.

2008-02-11T11:09:00.000-08:00

Rodney, Jeff and John from Atlanta came to visit us again! It was really great to see them again! I guess what I love the most about people coming over from the states is the positivity they bring. The way they look so calm and happy. I always smile when I see Rod and Jeff. They are two really cool guys! Hope God blesses them A LOT!
Soon Bekah will come to visit us also. I seriously can´t wait to see her again! I feel like i need americans to come over from time to time, so that i would get my joy back. I wonder if that means that I should just move to the States? Never know...

Mistakes

2008-02-03T08:18:00.000-08:00

We are people. We all make mistakes. The first time you make a mistake it is so easy to fix it. Your friends will help you and they believe in you. The more mistakes you make the harder it gets to fix them and to have you friends still believe in you. It´s not your fault that you keep messing up and its not their fault for not believing in you. The only thing we can do is to try not to mess up, cuz in the end it´s gonna be hard for yourself to believe in you...

EUROLAUL 2008 EESTI VÕIDULUGU!

2008-02-03T00:27:00.000-08:00

Laul nr. 1. Leto svet
muusika ja sõnad: Priit Pajusaar, Glen Pilvre, Peeter Oja, Hannes Võrno, Tarmo Leinatamm
esitab: Kreisiraadio

Minu meelest lihtsalt super! tüübid läksid saatesse, et eurolaulu nö mõnitada, kuna see on ju täiesti mõttetuks kujunenud. See on pigem poliitiliste suhete ülevaatamise koht kui mingi lauluvõistlus. Mina isiklikult olen meie naljameeste üle uhke! Sokeerige euroopat ja näidake kui vägevad eestlased on. Ja vaadake kui palju keeli meie oskame! :D igal juhul põidlad pihku, sest need mehed teevad ajalugu. aitab läägetest armastuslauludest! Go Leto Svet!

In Memory of Heath Ledger

2008-01-23T09:15:00.000-08:00

Australian-born actor Heath Ledger, 28, was found dead Tuesday, Jan. 22. Its a sad loss for the movie world. He was one of my favorite actors. "10 things I hate about you" is and will always be one of my favorite movies. The papers say different stuff about how he died, but for me it does not even really matter, cuz he is gone. It is wierd how sad it makes me. I never knew him, did not even follow up his career much, but now when he is gone, I miss him. I will never understand death. Especially a death of a young person. All i really wish, is that a memory that will be left to this world through media, would be good.
RIP! We will miss you!

Bad day?

2008-01-22T12:39:00.000-08:00

Last night before I went to bed I listened to Louie Giglio´s sermon "Hope" - The Megaphone of Hope . He talked about how trouble is coming and how we can choose to use a megaphone to glorify God through hard times. He constantly repeated that trouble is coming.Well of course I prayed after it, that if trouble comes, that i could hold on to the cross and be ready for it. So i fell a sleep with a voice in my head...the trouble is coming, beware...
In the morning I woke up when my alarm clock rang at 7.00. I wanted to get up early to study for my exam and then go to school. Well I was way too tired so i thought i´ll skip the first lecture and go to the second one. Said, done. So i got some more sleep and was ready to go to the second lecture. When I started walking i realized that i had an appointment with my doctor at 12, so i would not have made it there if i had gone to the lecture. So i went back home...studied a little and called to a friend who was in school. I asked how did the first lecture went. She said it got canceled. I was amazed of course. Oh well i thought, good for me i guess...and then went to the doctors. As I checked in and started walking towards the doctors room, I saw a lady sitting there and i knew something was not right. So i went there and saw the sign on the door. My doctor was sick, so all the appointments were canceled. So basically i skipped a lecture to go to the doctors and the doctor kinda skipped our appointment. I went all the way to the other side of the city to find out that my appointment got canceled. I just started to smile and i walked away. okay... so i though that i have no reason to go home, so i should go to school 2 hours before exam and study and wait. Did I study when i got there? No! Well the exam was suppose to start. But since the professor was late and he wanted some people to present their papers, we never really had an exam. So i guess it was a good thing and a ad thing cuz now i need to do a paper in a week, while i have other 3 exams coming up.
CRAZY! But you know what. trough out all this trouble I remembered Louie´s talk and i glorified God all day long! I guess the best way to remember a sermon is to experience it the next day. I don´t think today was a totally bad day. I just think that good always comes with bad...almost always!

A cool papito!

2008-01-19T02:50:00.000-08:00

Some of you might know that I love photography and that I carry my little camera with me all the time. Well it is because in life there are moments that are there only for a little while and if you don´t take a picture of them you can never really see them again. SO i was walking in town with some friends when I noticed this really cool guy walking really slowly. But what got my attention was his cool style! I dont think he did it on purpose, but i was sweet anyway!
A real ghetto style:

Worldometers

2008-01-19T02:33:00.000-08:00

Evelin showed me this page. It is awesome. Makes you think about life and death and all the things in the world. Definitely check it out and take a minute to look at the numbers running. Worldometers

Postimees: Tööle sõitnud leedulanna sattus Kaunase asemel Tartusse

2008-01-16T00:31:00.000-08:00

Eile kella 18.40 ajal sai Tartu politsei väljakutse Tartus Vahi tänaval asuvasse Maxima kauplusesse, sest sealsele turvamehele tundus ühe naise käitumine kummaline.
Politseinikke ootas poes turvamees koos 33-aastase leedulanna Jolantaga, kes peale oma emakeele ühtegi muud keelt ei osanud.
Patrull võttis naise kaasa ning suundus otsima tõlki, kes leedulanna murest aru saaks. Pika otsimise peale leitigi tõlk, kes Jolanta mure politseinikele ümber jutustas.
Selgus, et Jolanta töötab Leedus Kaunase linnas asuvas Maxima kaupluses koristajana.
Naine elab Kaunasest 125 km kaugusel ning käib tavaliselt tööle ja sealt tagasi pöidlaküüdiga.
Sellegi esmaspäeva hommikul otsustas ta töölejõudmiseks hääletada ning talle pakkus talle küüti keegi vene keelt kõnelev rekkajuht.
Jolanta seletanud juhile, kuhu ta minna soovib ning jäänud pärast seda tukastama.
Kui ta hiljem juhi jutu peale üles ärkas, teatas too, et ollakse kohal.
Autost välja astudes nägi naine enda ees Maxima kauplust ning, arvates, et on tööle jõudnud, astus sinna sisse.
Et ta aga Kaunase Maxima asemel Tartu Maxima juurde jõudnud on, sellest polnud tal esialgu aimugi.
Politseinikud viisid Jolanta, kellel polnud kaasas rahakottigi, naiste varjupaika ööbima.
Jolanta tagasi koju aitamisega tegeleb täna Leedu konsulaat.

Letters To God

2008-01-13T13:29:00.000-08:00

This is soo cool! Check this out! It is amazing how kids think! I love it!!!

Check out this website: Godtube

Funny videos

2008-01-13T13:22:00.001-08:00

I was bored so I found some cool videos... Check them out!

If nothing else makes you laugh, then this definitely should!

Funny Lef - More bloopers are a click away

for all of you who have a birthday coming up!

Happy Birthday - For more funny videos, click here

He´s the man! :D

The Man Song - These bloopers are hilarious

2008-01-13T11:37:00.000-08:00

I was walking to the store and I was listening to my mp3 player as always... I was listening to "Glory in the highest" by Chris Tomlin and I was just looking at the sky. I love to do that when I´m walking or just outside. I was looking at the sky and I saw these clouds. Gray clouds above me and then there was a piece of dark blue sky between two gray clouds. I dunno how to explain it, so I draw it...

There was a cross shaped blue sky between these dark gray clouds. And stars shined in that blue sky. It was amazing. The gray clouds seemed so close and the blue sky seemed so far! It made me think...yeah, I do think! I was thinking about how the gray clouds are all the problems in our little lives and out there, behind those clouds there is an amazing God and His plan for us. It made me feel so good! It gave me hope. You know, how sometimes we try to so hard to see the future, we try to sneak through the dark clouds and we just can´t see. Well we should just trust Jesus and as I saw that sky today...I know, you know, we all know that He is out there and His plans will come true! He has already made a path for us, we just have to trust him.
On my way back I saw heart shapes in the sky. Again Jesus talked to me. He loves you and me so much! We just have to shine and worship Him with our lives!

2008-01-13T08:26:00.000-08:00

NATHAN: "You couldn't be into lobster?"
HALEY: "Dude, macaroni and cheese is food of the gods"NATHAN: "Yeah, if the gods are five year olds."

KEITH: Because he should know that he's good He could use that in his life.
WHITEY: We could all use that in our lives.

LUCAS: I say those people that pray here are wasting their time. God doesn't watch sports.

PEYTON: First of all, you don't know me. Second of all, you don't know me.

NATHAN: Sometimes what you call "everything," I call "nothing."